Even though it’s technically the Easter holidays, I had to submit my development work at some point this week for my course and today was the most convenient day for me to do it. I feel relieved that it’s done, but I still have to assemble my show piece next week and I have the stresses of assessment and the exhibition. My lovely tutor and I had our last tutorial session today, and today was the last day of the sculpture studios for me as we had to clear all of our work out ready for assessment… I know all of this should mean a big weight off of my shoulders but I just want it all to be over already!
It’s kind of hard when you don’t get exactly what you want to consider what the end goal is. I didn’t get into my first choice uni but I did get into a really amazing art school. So if I study there am I giving up on my dream and giving in to compromise? which is something I said I’d never do, I fucking hate second best, or am I simply taking a different route to achieve my dream of becoming a sculptor/ filmmaker and installation artist?
I enjoy my job more everyday and feel genuinely sad when my shifts end. I felt weird admitting this to myself.